Posted by: Chuck Farley | March 31, 2008

Day 78 thru Day 84

Days 78 thru 85:  Injury and slackardness.  Monday I trimmed my beard (when I should have been running) and then immediately tripped and hurt my foot.  On Tuesday, I got out ran my 5 miles.  At about the 4 mile mark, my foot started to hurt pretty bad.  I made it back to the house, but it was pretty painful.  over the next couple days, it did not get much better, so I let it rest.  Friday, I purchased new shoes and the famous Power Step insoles.  Wow what a difference. 

Saturday:  The Papa John’s 10 Miler in Louisville.  After a pitiful training week, I went ahead ran the race.  It was a little colder then expected and a cutting wind did not make things any better, but once we started running it was not to bad.  I actually began to over heat.  I ran with no pain which was great.  The race was still tough in several different ways.   I found that although I spent many years on submarines, I am a little clostorphobic when it comes to a race.  I really do not like running in a crowd so I am constantly trying to find an open area in the crowd to run which tends to cause me to vary my pace quite a bit and I expend a lot of energy passing people.  The other thing I noticed was that I like running with team mates.  I ran this whole race alone.  I really don’t want to run the whole marathon alone.  Basically, I am pretty-much an insecure little baby.  Afraid of the crowd and afraid of being alone.  Great! 

It looks like I have gone to a weekly post.  When this who thing started I was pretty excited and motivated.  Like so much of life, it is easy to allow the passion to die down.   Early on, although I did not like running, I was eager to push myself out the door in the morning.  Well, eager may be a bit strong, but at least there was some excitement about the upcoming adventure.  The time commitment was not so great (45 minutes/day).  As the minutes turned into hours, the days into weeks and the weeks into months, it has gotten harder to stay motivated.  I find myself rolling over instead of rolling out.  I am continually disappointed in myself so posting is not something I really want to do.  Now that the goal is in site and seems achievable, it is harder to keep pushing hard.  I hate that I have so much trouble finishing! 

“So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!”  (Romans 7:21-25)

For me this “battle or the will” is much tougher than any physical struggle.  Overcoming this over the next month will be the greatest measure of success for me in this adventure.  In the end, when I feel the wait of failure pressing in, I will press on.  None of the training, new shoes, nutritional supplements, and proper hydration can finish the race for me.  Only my will can cause my body to cross that finish line.

“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might.  Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.  For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.  Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.”  (Ephesians 6:10-13)

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  1. I find myself in that struggle with many things in life. I get my mind all geared up to do something (i.e. dreams) but its the following through and finishing that is the struggle. At times I feel like a failure and then other times it is a reminder of how prideful I am… thinking I can do it on my own… but still realizing that I have to walk in the spirit He has given me and practice self-disipline. Its this tension and finding balance is hard.

    I am so proud of you. I am proud of both of my parents. You have both overcome so many obstacles and taught me so much. I will be praying for you. I love you more than you know 🙂 xo.


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